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Hari senen minggu depan itu memorial day..jadinya long weekend deh..and it's even longer for dendre cause he's taking one day vacation today..rencananya besok mau nginep di carbondale.


Anyway..Jibran kalo malem sekarang suka bangun dan teriak2 sejak di kasih solid food. Pasti deh sekitar jam 12 malem dia bangun dan jerit jerit sekitar 10 menitan..kayanya perutnya sakit..di mimik-in nggak mau, di peluk2 gitu juga nangis terus..di kasih binkynya nggak mau..pokonya nangis nya sounds like he is in pain, kaya nangisnya dia kalo lagi masuk angin. Trus gue balurin minyak telon dan di tepuk2 pundaknya..pasti abis itu dia kentut..duuuutt gitu kenceng banget..trus nggak lama diem deh. Kenapa ya..?..karena digestive systemnya belum siap nerima solid food..atau karena kebetulan makanannya aja yang nggak cocok?..Jibran baru di kasih applesauce hari berturut turut..dan 3 hari itu jerit2 kalo malem. Kemaren sengaja jibran nggak di kasih makan apa2..just to see apa malemnya teriak2 juga nggak..kalo enggak..berarti itu kan efek dari makanannya. Dan ternyata Jibran tidur pules banget semalem..sleeping thru the night..bangunnya jam 7 pagi...itu juga kita masih tidur dan dia main2 sendiri aja sampe jam 8. Yah kasian jibran..padahal dia keliatan seneng banget pas di kasih makan..maybe i should just wait for a few more days...trus nanti coba kasih makan yang lainnya.


Oh iya..speaking of masuk angin..is there such a thing as perantara angin?..or whatever you may call it. Jadi gini, kalo Jibran perutnya kembung..atau setiap abis minum susu kan di burp-in..di tepuk2 pundaknya biar burp..tapi kalo gue yang nge burp-in dia..jibran itu jarang banget keluar burp nya..yang ada malah guenya yang burp..aneh kan?..apalagi kalo masuk angin..wahh gue nggak brenti2 deh tuh nge burp...and if i place his tummy on mine..pasti perut gue langsung berasa melilit lilit..sambil burp2 terus. Makanya gue males nge burpin jibran..kalo ada orang lain sih mending yang lain aja yang nge burp in biar burpnya keluar..soalnya walopun keluar lewat gue..tetep aja nggak lega kalo belum denger his cute little burp..hehe..if you're a mommy you know how relieving it is to hear your baby's burp..! btw...Nggak cuma di Jibran aja sih..kalo dendre masuk angin juga gitu..pasti kalo gue pegang pundaknya aja..pasti deh burp nya keluar di gue...dia nya tenang2 aja. Aneh kaan..nggak tau kalo di orang lain lagi gimana, belum pernah nyoba sih. Palingan yang gue tau kaya gini tuh tukang urut gue di jakarta...kalo lagi mijitin gue..malah dia nya yang sendawa2 terus. Ajaib.

Hari sabtu kemaren, jibran abis di imunisasi lagi..di suntik 4 kali, dua di paha kanan, dua di paha kiri. Biasanya nurse nya ada 2..jadi nyuntiknya barengan..biar sakit nya sekalian, tapi karena hari sabtu, nurse nya cuma satu..kasian banget jibran ngerasain di suntik 4 kali berturut turut. Suntikan pertama sih dia nggak nangis..soalnya yang pelan2 gitu..kayanya dia nggak berasa, soalnya sambil gue ajak main. nah suntikan yang kedua itu yang di tusuk kaya di tancep gitu...langsung lah dia menjerit....Trus di paha kirinya di kasih band-aids bugs bunny dan tazmanian devil di sebelelah kanannya. Sekarang Jibran beratnya udah 15 pounds 13 oz (7.1 kg)..panjangnya 25 inches..either 25 1/4 or 25 3/4..gue lupa. dokternya udah ngasih the OK to start solid food..as long as it's in fruit or vegetable category..katanya nggak usah di kasih cereal..it's only rich in calory but does nothing good to the baby..cuma nambah gendut aja katanya..so better skip the cereal. Palingan nanti gue kasih cereal sekali sekali aja. Trus katanya sekarang makan buahnya satu small jar of gerber's sehari..minggu kedua baru 2 jar sehari. Untuk pertama katanya pake yang dari gerber aja..nggak usah bikin sendiri..soalnya belum tentu dia suka..jadi coba cobain aja dulu, kalo udah tau yang suka yang mana..baru bikin sendiri. Trus dokternya juga bilang untuk ngasih the same food for the whole week dulu baru trusnya ganti, jadi biar tau kalo ada alergi or something..but i think i'll give him 3 days period aja kali yah..kayanya 3 hari cukup kan untuk detect ada alergi ato enggak???...Gue udah beli grinder buat bikin baby food dan nanti mo beli buku nya..sebenernya dari hari sabtu kemaren udah mau mulai ngasih makan..but daddy's never home...huhu..udah 4 hari ini bener2 di rodi sama SBC..kemaren aja hari minggu tetep kerja dari jam 6 pagi sampe jam 8 malem..dan semalem di rumah banyak tamu...jadinya nggak sempet kasih makan..kan pinginnya pertama kali makan solid food ada dua duanya.. Hopefully tonight deh, udah beli juga mangkok dan sendok2 lucu nya...kemaren sama tika juga di beliin perlengkapan makan dari ikea..seneng deh..orang2 sering beliin Jibran macem2..bukannya gue seneng di kasih kasih gitu..tapi seneng aja berarti kan pada sayang sama jibran..pada merhatiin dan sering inget jibran.


Anyway..semalem itu kan orang orang pada ke rumah (all 15 of them)..dan ternyata gue di bawain my fave dessert...tiramisu cheesecake..tapi gue nggak tau kalo di bawain..jadi pas mereka dateng langsung kasak kusuk di dapur..tapi gue tetep nggak ngeh..pas gue lagi ngobrol2 deket dapur trus ngeliat kalo lagi pada masang lilin..hihihi..yaahhhh ketauan dehhh..hehehe...setelah itu pada nyanyi happy birthday...wahh...terharu saya...makasih yahh semuanya....=)). Gue tuh udah kebiasaan dari kecil kalo ulang taun nggak pernah di rayain..my parents never make a big deal out of it...jadi emang nggak pernah expect apa2 kalo ulang taun, makanya nggak nyangka aja kalo ternyata diem2 orang2 pada merencanakan sesuatu..hihi. Pantesan..siang2 itu kan gue, dita, yoga and ading went to cheesecake factory..dan gue mo mesen tiramisu..ehh nggak di bolehin sama si dita..gue disuruh pesen yang lain aja..sampe ribut2 gitu sama dia..hehe..ribut2 bercanda tapi..abisaaan ngatur aja deh orang pingin makan tiramisu juga..hehe...ehh ternyata dari sebelum ke cheesecake orang2 waktu di rumah tika udah planning mo beliin tiramisu..hihi..ya maab dit..:P. and you know what..i got 2 more necklaces for my birthday present..dari tika sama dita..waduh ada apa niih..kenapa kok pada ngasih gue kalung yahh........Anyway...got a few more new items...including a motorola touchscreen PDA phone and a new sleek and thin toshiba satellite notebook....YAY...i couldn't be happier..

- Perempuan di titik nol = Nawal El Saadawi

- Lentera Hati = Quraish Shihab

- Panggil aku Miss B = Fira Basuki

- Rojak = Fira Basuki

- Menunggu Matahari Melbourne = Remy Sylado

- Jomblo = Hmm..Siapa yaaa authornya??..*lupa*

- Mahadewa Mahadewi = Nova Riyanti Yusuf

- Seribu Kunang Kunang di Manhattan = Umar Kayam

- Shanghai Baby = Wei Hui

- Handbags, The Power of The Purse = Anna Johnson

- Stupid White Men..and other sorry excuses for the state of the nation = Michael Moore

- NP = Banana Yoshimoto

- Veronika Decides to Die = Paulo Coelho

yupe...25 years old today..tua yaaa tuaaa...huhu. Setaun yang lalu..right on my birthday..i went to walgreens to get a home pregnancy test..and it turned out positive..sebenernya emang udah curiga kalo kayanya nih gue hamil dari seminggu sebelumnya, tapi keukeuh mau beli pregnancy test nya pas ulang taun gue biar kalo positive kan jadi kado terindah..hihi..maksa yaaa...:P.


I got a white gold necklace from dendre's mom..with my initial as the pendant..and another necklace from my mom..with Jibran name on it, preserved in a beautiful high polished white gold chain...asli gue seneeeeng banget pas liat..sampe kotaknya langsung gue tutup lagi saking kagetnya dan nggak percaya..hehehe...soalnya dari waktu itu emang udah pingin banget..tapi gue nggak ngerti soal emas emasan..jadi mau bikin pas di jakarta aja..eh tau taunya udah di beliin..=))...thank you mommy...


I didn't do anything special today though..bangun pagi banget..jam 4.30 cause dendre had to leave early to work today..(from 6-6..the SBC's union is going on strike..therefore the non-union employees kerjaannya jadi tambah banyak)..the parents are still suffering from jetlag...jadinya nggak kemana mana deh..cuma ke target, anter dan jemput dendre trus beli KFC..but I'm happy..and the people that I love are healthy and alive..and that's all that matters..=)

Dendre's mom and dad are here..they just arrived early this evening. Seneng deh sejak ada Jibran jadi sering di kunjungi orang orang...=)

Hari ini Jibran 4 bulan..cepet yahh..kalo ngeliat jibran kayanya udah nggak kaya bayi lagi..kadang maunya emang supaya dia cepet besar..tapi suka sedih juga kok cepet amat sih gedenya...kata dendre kalo bisa di suntik biar kecil terus mau deh..hehe...*husss*.


Here's some pictures from the past months...i'm using yahoo photo album since i can't log in to my FTP account..last week the login was successful but we couldn't access the file that has been uploaded and this week..the ftp always fail to connect...we have the domain and hosting but can't do anything with it..what a waste of money!!..So i'm just using the free one until the problem is fixed.


I just republished all the entries since the first time i used blogger..i've been using blogger since 2001..but i've started this online journal thing since..i think early 2000..using a service like blogger tapi udah RIP sekarang..so i lost all the entries. Sayang juga kalo di pikir...i know it's nothing important but they represent my life. Anyway.. the comments from previous posts are gone now..huhu..maap yahh..=))

i got this from the msg board:


Before I was a Mom

I made and ate hot meals.

I had unstained clothes.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.


Before I was a Mom

I slept as late as I wanted.

And I never worried about how late I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.


Before I was a Mom

I cleaned my house each day.

I never tripped over toys and forgot the words to lullabies.


Before I was a Mom

I didn't worry whether or not plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.


Before I was a Mom

I had never been puked on

pooped on

spit on

peed on

chewed on

or pinched by tiny fingers.


Before I was a Mom

I had COMPLETE control of my mind

My thoughts

My body

And my time.

I slept all night.


Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child

So the doctor could do tests

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.


Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because

I didn't want to put them down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

Could affect my life so much.

I never knew I would LOVE being a Mom!


Before I was a Mom

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.

I didn't know so something so small

Could make you feel so important.


Before I was a Mom

I never got up in the middle of the night

Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay

I had never known the warmth

The joy

The love

The heartache

The fulfillment

Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

Kobe Bryant is superhuman, he gave yet another outstanding performance last night...scoring 42 points and lead the lakers to victory eventhough he just spent a second straight day inside a courtroom in colorado...and almost every shot he made was a tough shot. So its 2-2 for the lakers and spurs and for the rest of the teams in the conference semifinals..it's getting exciting..

Jibran sekarang udah tambah gede, udah tambah panjang dan tambah berat, dari bulan lalu udah pake diaper size 2...minggu depan Jibran 4 bulan...udah boleh makan solid food..i can't wait to go to babies r us and buy all those cute and colorful bowls and spoons for him. Tapi Jibran dah lama banget nih nggak flip over lagi..kayanya dia lupa deh caranya ngebalikin badan dari tummy to back..hehe..


His head and neck muscle's control has improved, kalo lagi tiduran udah bisa ke posisi duduk kalo tangannya di pegangin..trus kalo lagi tiduran sekarang maunya bangun bangun...ngangkat2 kepalanya dan kakinya kaya lagi sit up..hehe..lucu deh kalo lagi tidur trus pas bangun..melek dan langsung aja gitu ngangkat kepalanya..kaya mo bangun sendiri. Sekarang maunya duduk sambil di pegangin..kalo nggak berdiri sambil di pegangin..kalo lagi gitu senengnya bukan main. Trus sekarang kalo lagi di tengkurepin juga udah bisa pindah posisi..dari yang tadinya horizontal jadi vertical.


Jibran juga lagi seneng senengnya blow bubbles..ampun deh itu ludahnya kemana mana..hehe. Tambah cerewet juga..kalo di ajak ngobrol wahh hebohan dia deh..ketawa mlulu..trus suka teriak teriak nggak jelas juga...terutama kalo lagi gemes sama mainannya yang bergelantungan..pingin di masukin ke mulut tapi nggak bisa bisa..soalnya mainannya ketinggian. He also loves to grab at things now...kalo di gendong sambil megangin baju..rambut gue juga di jambakin terus..huhu..it's time to get a short hairstyle i guess..


Ternyata Jibran itu takut gelap..hehehe..waktu itu kan mau tidur dan lampunya di matiin semua..dia yang langsung ngejerit...trus waktu di rumahnya tante juga di bawa ke basement..ke laundry roomnya..dan pas masuk ke situ lampunya belum di nyalain...dian yang langsung megang kenceng banget dan ngejerit. Jangankan di ruangan gelap..di pakein sunglasses aja dia langsung tereak kok...hehehe...gimana siihh..kan lahirnya malem, katanya kalo yang lahirnya malem itu nggak takut gelap..hehe..mitos sih mitooss..


Trus..apalagi ya...oh iyaa sekarang kalo di tidurin jibran ngangkat kakinya udah tinggi banget and he can touch his toes with his hand..tapi belum dua duanya..baru satu tangan aja. He also has found his thumb..hehe..telat banget yah..dulu kan semua jarinya di masukin..sekarang udah bisa masukin jempolnya aja. Trus sekarang nursingnya udah nggak bisa diem lagi....he looks around so much..ketawa ketawa dulu..trus terusin lagi..trus nengok ke tv dulu..trus terusin lagi...ampun deh..kan jadi lama selesainya. Tapi lucu sih kalo dia lagi kayak gitu..biasanya gue suka pura pura nggak liat aja dan nggak ngajak dia ngomong..abis kalo enggak kan tambah lama..tapi dia tetep aja ngeliatiin terus nungguin gue nengok ke dia..hehe...


Jibran jibran..you make me feel so big inside...you make me proud...just to see you do all those little things...just to be your mom.

My little brother turned 10 years old today..Happy Birthday Ibnu, may you grow up to be a fine young man...i'm so sorry i couldn't give you the birthday present that you wanted..but i hope you still have a wonderful birthday nevertheless. (My dad was scheduled to arrive jakarta on his birthday and he was hoping that my dad would bring Jibran along as his birthday present..hehe)...I love you birthday boy!!

Yesterday was mother's day...my first mother's day...nothing special though..in fact it was kind of a sad day for me..a few tears trickled down my cheeks as i waived goodbye to my dad at st. louis airport last night..have a safe trip home daddy...

pingin nge blog lagi..kayanya udah lama nggak nulis nulis, tapi MT nya lagi error..damn you MT!!..eh bukan MT nya sih yang error..tapi login ke MT nya yang sepertinya ada kesalahan dari internal server cold-static.com, don't know how to fix it..payah deh webhostxl..upload file aja nggak keluar keluar..i was trying to place this blog on the cold-static server but somehow it didn't work eventhough i know i didn't make any mistake when setting all the configuration...*sigh*...i guess i'm back to using blogspot for now.